http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/ A mothers intensely personal and spiritual journey. en-us 2007-08-06T05:57:33+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/005429.html iam writing after exactly one year. The changes all around in this one year have been phenomenol so great that I can only see these as Magic happening in a big way. My son is now on less than half... Monica 2007-08-06T05:57:33+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/003676.html Iam writing in after a really long time... I do regularly check into the site but somehow havent written into the blog. Probably because so much has changed since last year and I have been there standing on edge watching... Monica 2006-07-22T06:49:30+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/001963.html Looking back to when I first started writing in, to now, life has moved eons. My son now goes to college he is of course still on medication,still has a few symptoms and side effects but is at his functional... Monica 2005-06-21T07:45:01+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/001278.html A thought plagues me again and again, what if his schizophrenia was caused by drug abuse?What if it would be possible therefore to see him absolutely cured in a few years time.And this thought worried me constantly, especially after I... Monica 2004-12-25T11:37:47+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/001165.html It has been a long long time since I last wrote in. In October we all took a holiday out of the city into the mountains.It was absolutely fantastic for us all and so good for my son.He really enjoyed... Monica 2004-11-18T11:27:27+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000982.html "The journey into darkness has been long and cruel,and you have gone deep into it" from a Course in Miracles. We are more afraid of life than we are of death. And this is how I feel exactly.Iam paralysed by... Monica 2004-09-08T07:43:00+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000841.html Nick your comments are useful and timely. Yes the illness should not be mentioned by name when not asked for.In face of the current "studied" non awareness infact almost a revulsion to mental illnesses shared by the majority.It is in... Monica 2004-08-11T05:27:54+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000834.html I continue to project my own deep fears onto to my son,time and again I have blown situations completely out of proportion and exploded into anger and rage. When it happened once again recently I did a very serious looking... Monica 2004-08-09T09:14:56+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000801.html The positives: Is talking avidly and lucidly with family and friends. Is smiling genuinely. Sense of humour is returning. Is begining to concentrate on written material. Is not depressed. Is working very hard on exercising his body. Follows routine at... Monica 2004-08-05T06:24:38+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000789.html There is my son just about begining to cope with normal life,trying very hard to fit in and on the other hand is my daughter a "super kid" who got brilliant results,was admitted into the best college and course,doing a... Monica 2004-08-02T05:37:21+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000768.html The day care centre was closed for two weeks during which it was opened on a few occasions by the special request of parents and I volunteered to help on these days,the experience was very useful. It clearly showed how... Monica 2004-07-26T04:54:15+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000748.html Time has aquired strange properties.It has in real time been only two weeks but it seems like months.Occasionally I wonder if me too is experiencing the surreality that my son experiences. In a sense it is like being truely alive... Monica 2004-07-21T04:34:27+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000661.html At the end of 8 difficult months there is respite.. a certain predictability to events and long spaces of time to relax mentally especially. There have been days of dropping things, forgetting to eat,panicking at the slightest sound,days with jumbled... Monica 2004-06-29T10:14:56+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000609.html Dear katrina,susan,moeder,survivor,ruby,puzli,nick,moe,Red...thank you for your supportive and encouraging comments...it sees me through the bad times. Life is good at the moment..(I really must begin to stop seeing the good times as temporary) and my son is much much better Iam... Monica 2004-06-16T07:32:58+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog18/archives/000598.html Its now two weeks since the seizure happened,very slowly we are going back to the earlier life style. Clozapine has been reduced to 400mgs and an anti seizure added. Iam upset with the doctor for he paid little attention when... Monica 2004-06-11T06:57:56+00:00