http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/ The daily to day life of someone who has paranoid schizophrenia. en-us 2005-01-03T06:54:21+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/001307.html His grandmother gave us home-made pickles over the holidays. They hung suspended in a neatly-labeled jar, along with some herbs and peppers to spice up the taste. Each time I opened the refrigerator for some creamer for my tea, I... alex 2005-01-03T06:54:21+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/001118.html "Your eyes can deceive you, don't trust them." A few thousand years ago, and I'd be a Shaman. I can't be a modern Shaman? So, now what? It's hard to fight, uphill, all the time. Against culture, and expectation. Knowing... alex 2004-10-13T06:16:48+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/001117.html Well, I can be pretty sure that I wasn't given the placebo. Yesterday morning I felt a little dizzy and had a head-ache. But today, it had escalated to not being able to stand. I was continuously falling into things... alex 2004-10-11T06:16:03+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/001119.html I'm going to start the drug or placebo tomorrow. Just to remind everyone, this isn't a treatment plan. It's just my little contribution to the field of schizophrenia research. I'm relieved that they did a lot of muscle tests on... alex 2004-10-08T06:19:53+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/001116.html I had a really bad morning, but I'm feeling better now. An argument (that is now resolved) left me with negligible sleep hours, and I couldn't take any preventative anti-psychotic medications because I'm going to be starting the test drug... alex 2004-10-07T06:14:56+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/001026.html I got a call this morning from a clinic that wants me to participate in a study for a new medication for schizophrenics. The lady asked me if she could forward my information to the doctor doing the study. I... alex 2004-09-21T21:44:00+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/001013.html I highly recommend that anyone with schizophrenia should see the movie "Gothika," especially if they've had some difficulties with the mental health industry. Not only is the movie about a psychologist who has the tables turned upon her when she... alex 2004-09-18T01:12:42+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/001007.html I've been taking some exams so that I can try to go back to school. There are elections going on today, and I wore a button that said "A Voting American with disAbilities." I have trouble with the voices during... alex 2004-09-15T06:34:32+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/000946.html At the time I write this, I'm away from my computer. It's 6:24 AM 9/2/04, and I'm wigging out on the way to volunteer to the zoo, as usual. This always happens because I don't get enough sleep on Wednesday... alex 2004-09-03T20:51:09+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/000644.html Well, here I am again. I was fired from my old job, and have just started a new one at a pet shop. I'm still sad about losing my old job because of my illness, but at least I have... alex 2004-06-25T07:04:23+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/000383.html So, things at my job are coming to a head. I knew that, since I'd been having such a crappy week, everyone who isn't supposed to know that I work for SMH would be at the April 20th mandatory class... alex 2004-04-29T23:08:47+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/000322.html Work at the residential home for the mentally-ill was exhausting. When I first walked in, I found out that one of the staff members' estranged husbands is going to be trying to kill her. She has a restraining order, and... alex 2004-04-19T20:52:02+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/000242.html Well, the folks from yesterday's job interview don't want me. I got the depressing phone call today. But, I went to another job interview at a local hotel. Their Human Resources centre had one of those carpet designs that seems... alex 2004-04-05T22:33:09+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/000235.html This morning I woke up terrified. I used to never be afraid of anything this Earth could throw at me. In college, I studied zoology, and dreamed of traveling to far off lands to capture strange new creatures. I've been... alex 2004-04-05T02:29:26+00:00 http://www.schizophrenia.com/blog23/archives/000972.html intrinsic justice forlornly unseen as matters of the skull / until morning i bled again. unable to control. / tired of being at fault you will / fucking die / unjust fool, liar to insanity / grace to be lost... alex 2003-11-09T03:11:00+00:00