Dreams all night
I slept a good 14 hours or so last night. I dreamed a lot. I had when young and first psychotic recorded many of my dreams. I had thought my schizophrenia was the result of this dream study of myself. Recently I have done less recording of dreams and even started not dreaming much. Last night some battle related to my volunteer shift was happening in my mind. But after waking up today I am fine and on call and the shift is happening. It was a battle between my personal feelings and tiredness and my duties in public. I am feeling more secure now and working on my email transfer and thinking of getting started on some marking today. This problem is one of the pubic self and private self. This was discovered to be related to feeling embarassed in schizophrenia by R.D. Laing in his book the Divided Self. It took me twenty years to finally read most of the ideas in that book.
Posted by petert at June 28, 2005 09:06 AM