April 06, 2004


It started with an intensifying of smell. It made me more sick along with the stomach infection. All perfumes, foods smell magnified 1000x. And at night the feeling of betrayal started once again. In the morning the delusions gained help from the hallucinations. Employing tactics to run away, where to? whom to trust? how to go? what if they know? what if they ring my parents? they will bring me back...If....then...what to do? where do I get my original marlboro's from? south ex. is the only place I know. 5 would do. but then if i go and stay there i would need more. i dont have money. i'll have to withdraw it from the bank. whole 10 grand?? how long will i stay there? but what if she goes against me? what if ...I need to get out, get out of there. pack my bag and leave. but then the guards could try to stop me. where do I go?........

Posted by puzli at April 6, 2004 11:35 AM | TrackBack


Hi Puzli,
these are the similar situations, my wife had been which was start of Sz, initially i thought she just jokes, but it was really serious when so many times taxi came and she went away and came back after 20-30 min. she had similar thoughts, as I used to talk alot with her.

Thank God and wish that it was only in past.. and wouldn't repeat.

could U elaborate... do U exp it now also////

take care

Posted by: Nick at April 8, 2004 08:35 AM

hi nick,
well I wrote this as it happened recently with me. it happened again because of my dad getting angry at me again, and since they were the ones who were "trying to destroy me" i started hallucinating again. you have to take care that you don't do anything that could trigger the hallucinations. you need to understand that directly trying to stop your wife from doing something may cause it. take care. love. puzli

Posted by: puzli at April 9, 2004 06:12 AM

Dear Puzli,
I thought that you were writing about your earlier experiences when I first read your entry. The hallucinations must have been so frightening. I know because my daughter got them recently when she slept less, worked more and felt stimulated. I hope they are not troubling you now.Yes we have to be careful not to trigger them. My prayers are with you.
Hugs, Survivor

Posted by: survivor at April 11, 2004 07:35 PM

puzli, hope the worst is over. as someone once said, 'it's not easy bein' green'... sanity is one hard thing to keep going. i send you a bouquet of your favorite Indian flowers.... blue

Posted by: bluebird at April 11, 2004 08:06 PM

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