The Doctor is In

Late Monday Night

It's a bummer when things go wrong. All the more so when it means going back into the territory of "will this lead to readmission?" As it is, I'm finding that I'm doing better than expected and although I'm unhappy at the turn of events at least I think I can keep on the path of non-psychiatric behaviour. But Gordon Bennet, it's a trial!

How's things with you good folks? I usually have a sense that the world is quite capable of looking after itself without my involvment and that generally other people are all right. Maybe that's a bit selfish. I suppose I need to be more aware of my place in the grand scheme of things and that each of us is as important as the other. Being removed from society - I was driven to the hospital in the back of a police van first time round - has the benefit of stopping all the nonsense but it also starts a whole ball rolling about reintegration. I've been at it since 1998 and, obviously, I'm still a beginner. It's pretty bad when the very people who set themselves up to help you out, turf you out. It's happened before. I was in a church hall for the night and wanted to stay longer so the good minister's assistants decided to throw me bodily out of the door. And then they called the police. Moral being that when you're down and out expect to get kicked in the nuts as well.

Really, my life is turning up trumps at the moment. I'm suffering setbacks but also some very wonderful things have been going on and I'll do my best to keep this whole tale as well balanced as I can. Stop me if I make too much heavy weather of it all. Anyway, I'm done for tonight but I'm beginning to get the hang of this so see you soon. All the best, Alan.

Posted by alan at April 6, 2004 01:14 AM