August 23, 2004

Monks are like us

I picked up a book called Meditations: On the Monk Who Dwells in Daily Life by Thomas Moore at The Victory Clubhouse. I don't know why but I started to insert the phrase chronically mentally ill for the word monk or to attribute characteristics of monks to us.

"Modern Life is becoming so full that we need our own ways of going to the desert to be relieved of our plenty. Our heads are crammed with information, our lives are busy ith activities, our cities stuffed with automobiles, our imaginations bloated on pictures and images, our relationships heavy with advice, our jobs burdened with endless new skills, our homes cluttered with gadgets and conveniences. We honor productivity to such an extent that the unproductive person or day seems a failure.

CMI [monks] are experts at doing nothing and tending the culture of that emptiness.

Traditionally the CMI [monk] is extremely active, and on many fronts:actively engaged in inner life, actively committed to a communal style of living, and actively producing words, images, and sounds of extraordinary meaningfulness and beauty."

I'm somewhat sad tonight as I have been alone for two days. I might go to Big Bear in September. That would be a lot of fun and a much needed escape. I'm looking into medical transcription school. Also, I'm going to sell Avon. My Mom still hasn't had time to take photos of me so I haven't gotten pictures online yet. Bummer. It is time to go back to school and I feel at odds because I'm not returning this Fall. I think a major problem is boredom. I am expanding my hours with work; but I'm not that excited about that. I tried to get one club located at a board and care to go to the park to play croquet and volleyball; but they wouldn't go. They like their building. Tomorrow I go make a presentation to consumers at a multipurpose organization for the homeless mentally ill population to see if they would like to have a Schiz. Anon. meeting there. I feel very sluggish these days. It is hard to get inspired early in the day to get up and go. I've been going to the Y a little lately and that has been good. I am considering going to a church down the block; but I am a little anxious about going. I don't know what I fear.

I see my therapist on Wednesday. I found a flyer for an hour long massage for $35. That would be very nice. I might do it.
Is accupuncture good? I'd like to try it.

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