October 13, 2005

New Diagnosis

Today I got exciting news! I was rediagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder with depression and psychotic features. I feel like someone has just given me a billion dollars worth of hope. I now see a brighter future for myself. My Dr. is reducing my Abilify and increasing my Lexipro. Maybe I can maintain without the antipsychotics and I will not have to endure the weight gain and the tardive dyskinesia that I have been experiencing for so long now. Also, without so many drugs maybe I will feel up to driving again. I am still having pain which my shrink associates with my life experience with abuse. Tomorrow I am going to get a ride to apply for my old position with the school district. I want to start out working 3 hour shifts in Special Ed. Pre-K. Then if I begin to feel better I may graduate to a longer day.

I am sure that I will be accepted to the new subsidized building. I am going to be moving in January. The new building will have a rooftop garden and a community room for all of us to congregate. Other than that I really don't know what features the individual apartments have. We will each be given a parking space. The building is still in this zip code;but not on such good bus lines. Maybe they will allow pets there.

I watched Love Actually last night and it was really good. A good laugh and warm and fuzzy also.

I signed a petition to oust Bush which is on changeworldnow.org
You too can go there and be a part of this movement. There is also a walk out on November 2nd.

Posted by Butterfly Emerging at October 13, 2005 05:22 AM


I want to thank you.
Actually, I've wanted to thank you for ages now
but I was forever baulking
What will I say?
What is it I want to get across without sounding like a tragedy?
And it is clear as a bell now.
Thank you for educating me.
I've learned so much from you.
My ignorance a small blight on my soul
where it once sat large, proud and unnoticed.
My meagre excuses for not knowing are shrivelled,
my problems miniscule
in the grander scheme of things.
When I pause to think of America
I don't think land of the free
but I do think home of the brave,
because I think of you.
Shine on you crazy diamond.

Perth, Western Australia

Posted by: Noreen at October 17, 2005 02:49 PM

Post a comment

Please enter this code to enable your comment -
Remember Me?