The Joy of Madness

Tide is Turning

I went to the emergency room on Wednesday because the nurse at Olive View Medical Center OB/GYN clinic told me to go there to get a referral to her clinic. I had to wait four and a half hours to see a dr. in the walk-in clinic. They make you wait with the emergency people so that they can register you. It takes about an hour to wait to be seen by a nurse to tell your problem and then a few more hours to check in and be triaged. So I got a referral to OB/GYN. I didn't explain that the reason I went to olive View (a county facility)is because I cornered my Dr on Tuesday and asked what he thought of a hysterectomy. He stated frankly that he didn't have the time to submit the paperwork to Medi-Cal which is state health aid. He said that they in all likelihood would deny the first attempt and then possibly even continue denying it indefinitely. So he said go to UCLA hospital; but they don't accept Medi-cal. So therefore I went to the zoo of a place called Olive View. It sits in the hills sourrounding the valley where I live. There was actually a nice view of the mountains there and it was a foggy day so it was quite pretty. But I'll tell you that I was quite upset about being triaged when all I needed was a referral. There was no working water fountain and there were not enough chairs to accomodate all of the sick people. For two hours I sat outside where I could still hear the loud speaker when I was called in. They have a metal detector to enter the emergency room which slows down everything and creates a military like situation. I was given two perscriptions for pain meds which include Motrin and Tylenol. Someone tell me why I needed to get those by perscription. Well anyway I took about three of each today and became really sick to my stomach. I can take four of each per day. I spent the majority of my day today in bed. I have been having worse than normal (excruciating) pain for a week. I finally bought an electric heating pad and it helped some. Needless to say or maybe necessary to say I haven't been able to make it to my class this week. I must call and bow out. I am frustrated as hell.

I guess Victor and I are officially finished. He has not called in about a week. He missed my birthday. He went to get assessed at a mental health clinic a week ago. He filled out paperwork and made an appointment to see a dr. So I honestly don't know what to say.

I got a call from my first love who I dated when I was 19. I sent him a photo online so that he would not have unrealistic expectations of me having my 19 year old body. (LOL) I last saw him when I was 24 or 25. I don't know what he thought of the photo yet. He said (when he called yesterday)that he would call me Saturday in the a.m. and we would set up a meeting for the afternoon. We are supposed to meet in Hollywood. That was my favorite hangout when I was younger. We are going to meet at The Pantages Theatre. We live far from one another right now so this is an o.k. place to meet up. I'm giddy but don't know what his expectations are.

Today I walked to a new Starbucks in my area which happens to be a ghetto. You could call it a slum or the barrio too if you please. I've written of this before. The characters one finds here are quite unusual. I live near my m.h. clinic so I often see the druggies and alcoholics (who utelize the services of the same facility)sprawled out on the sidewalk in my path as I come and go. Because of the gangs near the new Starbucks there is a police enforced curfew. I had never heard of such a thing except in an emergency situation; but there is this sign bigger than Dallas stating it there. They are doing their best to spruce it up though. I am hoping for a book store to go into the new phase of the mall there. Anyhow, I was quite proud of myself for finally pulling myself together and taking the bus a few miles down there. Then I walked back after I got my coffee. I was hoping to get a copy of the CD "Possibilities" by Herbie Hancock but this store didn't have it stocked. That is what I want to buy my Mom for her birthday on the 10th of May. It was quite a nice day for a walk as there is sun and a little breeze.

Posted by Butterfly Emerging at May 6, 2006 12:00 AM