July 09, 2004

A spiritual sojourn

I got back on the first midnight. I was away for over two weeks and it was so different. It was for the first time that I was going for a spiritual sojourn. It was also the first time that I was doing something like this for myself.

I went to a place in the Himalayas where the holy river Ganges flows. I sat for long periods on the banks of the Ganges, contemplating, meditating and sometimes just drinking in the beauty of the river and the mountains. I bathed in the cold water of the river and floated holding on to the supports otherwise I would have drifted of to another place ... the currents were so strong. I also spoke to learned men in ochre robes who had studied the age old scriptures. They seemed timeless, so thin but their faces glowed though they may have been in their seventies. I asked them so many questions which no elders in our families could answer. They answered all my questions and what they said was so thought provoking. I also talked for a long time to a Christian nun who had come to learn yoga.They all did talk about the power of love, compassion and prayer so I prayed by the banks of the river.

The place where I stayed held Yoga classes on the banks of the Ganges and I went for them. My routine had changed and I spent a lot of time out doors. I had to walk a lot and after the plains I was breathless most of the time. My body ached at the end of the day and there was no time to think or worry just fall asleep! I rang home each night and spoke to my husband and daughter. It was a different kind of a holiday for my husband too.

After I got back I realised that what I had spoken in two days I hadn't spoken in a fortnight. So there was a lot of quietude. I miss the river and the mountains but then I hope the path of life which I traverse in will lead me to those mighty mountains and the Ganges again.

Thank you for your comments
Dear Barb,
Thank you for your response. My best wishes and prayers are with you and your family.

Dear Moeder,
I am sure that Mia and Manya will in time understand Cathy. It does takes time dealing with one's own emotions and understanding this illness especially when a loved one has it. My daughter has not been having episodes of sadness for some time. Thank you for telling me about the adjustment of the dosage of the anti-depressant. Yes the Himalayas are amazing. Why dont you come and see them? You must. Dear mother my prayers are with you, Cathy and your family.

Posted by survivor at July 9, 2004 02:11 AM


Dear Mother,

Your retreat sounds fascinating. I can't think of a more beautiful place than the Himalayas to have a retreat. Someday I would love to go there. Thank you for your prayers. I believe they help.

My Cassie is doing okay. Because of some problems she has with street drugs, I've chosen to back of a bit. I become emotionally wrung out if I know all the details of her life. I don't always approve of the things she's doing and unfortunately I have no power to stop her self-destructive behavior. I'm praying that the good Lord will watch over her and keep her safe. I pray that one day she will see that taking street drugs will only make her illness worse. Cassie is a beautiful person inside and I have confidence that she will survive this.

I will continue to pray for your daughter and your family. She is very fortunate to have such a loving mother and family.


Posted by: Moeder at July 11, 2004 08:56 AM

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