May 08, 2004

the unforgiven

deprived of all his thoughts,
the young man struggles on and on, he's known...
a vow unto his own, that never from this day,
his will they'll take away... [metallica - unforgiven]

...and even if they take away the will, what good is life. what good is it to live without your own will to do what you want to do , what you want to be. until you realize that the will is your own, the worst case scenario is that they won't let you do what you want to do and you try to find a way to end the misery. again, the only way to end out of total control is to fight back, die fighting or kill yourself.

he tries to please them all,
this bitter man he is,
throughout his life this man,
hes battled constantly,
this fight he cannot win,
a tired man they see no longer cares,
the old man then prepares to die regretfully
that old man here is me...... [metallica - unforgiven]

....as my friend says "die with your boots on", die in the battlefield. that is what i'm doing. trying to fight the demons, the demons inside my head, the regular seeing of things and not knowing whether they are real or not whether they were dreams or not, not remembering what you did the other day, was it a dream or real. this lack of motivation, to fight no longer is what i am into now. this fight i cannot win, a tired man u will see no longer cares....

what i've felt
what i've known
never shine through what i've shown [never shined through what i 've shone]
never free, never me
won't see what might have been...
what i've felt,
what i've known,
never shine through in what i've shone,
so i dub thee unforgiven.... [ metallica - unforgiven]

i'm never free, never me, always under the control of the voices, the visions, the thoughts that speak aloud to me, won't see what might have been and i don't even want to know coz it would be a waste of time, though i know what i wanted to be that i'm and now i'm not,.........but i'm sorry, i don't dub thee unforgiven....u will always remain in my heart, you have all been special to me, special in my life, special , yes, special....

Posted by puzli at May 8, 2004 03:35 PM | TrackBack

Comments

Keep trying.Someone up there likes His kid to fight.

Posted by: monica at May 9, 2004 11:32 AM

Keep trying.Someone up there likes His kid to fight.

Posted by: monica at May 9, 2004 11:32 AM

metallica fucking rocks. \m/

Posted by: krys at August 19, 2004 07:11 AM

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