State of Mind: June 2004 Archives

June 13, 2004

Its been a long time...

It's been a long time since i posted anything, so I guessed I might as well since I'm not going to sleep. the past few weeks have been full of activity for me. my exams got over and went well. I joined a buddhist chanting group under the Soka Gakkai International organization that really helped me through my tough time. It helped me quit my cigarettes too to some extent. We are shifting houses because of financial difficulties, so we are busy packing our stuff. lots of old clothes in the house are being exchanged for kitchen utensils from hawkers as the trend here goes. Everything is being packed carefully in cardboard boxes and labeled with a marker.

My meds were changed to 4.5 mg. of risperidone, the highest I have ever been on before my exams because of change of doctors. Now the dosage has been adjusted with a new salt added to control some of the parkinsonian symptoms like stiffness and rigidity of the body that I'm showing as side effects, by another new doctor. I have gotten rid of the drowsiness that I've had since my meds were increased from 2mg of risperidone to 4.5mg. Generally doing much better, much happier, emotional blunting is slowly going away once again. thats about it. u all take care and keep praying for the best. love. puzli

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June 01, 2004

This is not real...

It was a nightmare growing up, taking its toll on me, and my dad was trying to wake me up for the exam I had. Subconsciously I got the same feeling I used to get earlier, my dad was against me, trying to destroy me, this was all an act he was playing, .....And I woke up telling myself "this is not real, this is not real..."

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