October 01, 2004


Hi, things are going ok for the moment.
M and I talked quite a bit this last weekend and he told me so many things that I had no idea he was going through or has went through.
I am throughly amazed that even after all these years, I still learn something new from him/about the disease every day.
By him telling me all these things, it has really made me feel less shut out. Which feels really good. I am hoping that by telling me his delusions/problems that will free him up too. I know that I feel much closer to him when I know what is going on. I don't like being on the outside looking in and that is what this disease does to me sometimes.

I feel much better mental health wise. My therapist thinks I am much better, too. Thank goodness! I sure don't want to go back there again.

I know this will really sound strange but I told M. the other day that maybe God wanted me to see what depression really is, what M. has been through. So that I would have more insight into the pain, fear, feelings that go along with depression. God, if you are reading this message...I did get the idea! LOL!

Well, tomorrow is Friday, I say TGIF! I am hoping that this smooth period will last.

Posted by Jamie at October 1, 2004 01:27 AM | TrackBack


I am going through hell. I believe my husband may have schizophrenia. I need someone to talk to and you seem to really know what it is like to have a husband who has it. Pete, my husband, wants nothing to do with me, turned into a complete stranger. Not sure if his is comming back but if he does, i need to know what to expect and i need support because its going to be a hell of a ride. My love for him is forever and i am just like that wife on Its a Beautiful Mind. I will never leave if he will take me back but right now he has gone off the deep end and is trying to find the woman who he hears from this dream of his.

Posted by: Kechera at June 28, 2005 05:51 AM

My name is Jamie but i go by Kechera. going through hell of a time and need support, i believe my husband is schizophrenic.

Posted by: Kechera at June 28, 2005 06:03 AM

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