September 20, 2007
My life...is this what it is to be schizophrenic and Invega, the newest drug around.
I probably have Paranoid Schizophrenia, but why is this what I have been subjected to? Medications, therapy, is there a point? So I have psychosis and when I do I can get violent. Luckily I'm always caught on time. Is that what I really want? Do I want to be ill to show off that I could beat it? Am I even really ill?
Anyhoo, school is turning out to be very demanding. No one is as much an idiot as they were before. Demanding work. Especially math. Kind of sad, because I used to be able to do math with a snap of my finger. Now? I need individual help.
I'm still expecting an e-mail from Pam Wagner, even though I'm probably waiting in vain.
Going to switch off the Geodon and try Invega. Yes, I responded negatively to Risperdal. So what? It seems better than fucking Seroquel or Zyprexa. Or maybe not.
Lot's of questions and no answers. Is this it? A whole load of answers better come fast. Maybe I should look around...