June 18, 2004
Well, things are looking up for us. I have found a therapist who is of help to me. I was able to tell her the whole sordid mess. We are going to work on more support for me, which may include a huge move to be near family. I think I can actually see a light at the end of the tunnel...amazing as it seems.
She said she was "shocked" that I had been in this relationship for 21 years and never had major depression before....me, too now that I think about it!
M. is doing well weaning off the seroquel...so far. He says he is a little less tired. He sleeps well at night, but does not nap nearly as much during the day. He says his thoughts are the same. I seriously hope that the Geodon will continue to hold up on it's own. One nice thing about going off the seroquel is that our sex life may come back to life after all! Amen! LOL.
Posted by Jamie at June 18, 2004 12:19 PM
I've only been at it 10 years with my spouse, but when I read your posting the hair went up on the back of my neck. Geodon, Seoquel...feeling done in...I am right there with you. I honestly have run out of hope and am simply on autopilot. I am not sure what else to do...and would love to chat more.
Hi, I emailed you privately if you would like to chat more. Thanks, Jamie
From my research on depression, 90% of those who are depressed will loose their sex drive. I have been slowly loosing my sex drive for the past 25 years ( I am now 49). Gotu Kola seems to work wonders and can be found in all health food stores.
I have not had sex with my wife for many months - some of the reason is depression the other is I am fearful of getting too close to her because we both have too many personal issues with our in-laws. They have basically destroyed our marriage. My wife pushes to keep us together but I cannot be close to someone when I am in constant fear of her brothers.
Hope you are having a better day.