Some thoughts on Thanksgiving
Some days with a mentally ill spouse are just more than I can take. Today I am taking time to think of things I am thankful for, that my husband, dispite his disease, has given me.
Three beautiful young adults are at the top, middle and bottom of that list.
My kids are my life.
When I was a little girl the only thing I dreamed of was being a mom. They have made me so proud and I couldn't ask for better kids. All three are different, all are so kind, compassionate, loving, funny and just a joy to be around.
I was never happier than when barefoot and pregnant. No feeling in the world is better than having a baby lay their tiny head on your shoulder. Rocking a small child to sleep and watching their eyelids get so heavy, their little angel lips in a smile. I was born to be a mother.
Now that they are all young adults, I still enjoy them, watching them discover this world and all the possibilities that it has.
I can be really down, really stressed, ready to stop trying and feeling hopeless. Then one of them will pop their head around the corner and when I see their face...my smile reappears.
I am thinking that in God's master plan he sent them to me as a gift to help me through life. To help me see the sunshine when the clouds of a schizophrenic husband get in the way.
Thanks for listening to my babbling :) Jamie
Posted by Jamie at November 24, 2005 10:53 PM
I happened upon your blog while I was researching information on schizophrenia for a psychology class. You have shown me a whole new aspect of the disorder beyond the textbook facts and medical treatment; the effects it has on a family. I am so impressed with your persistence in coping. Thanks for your openness.
Posted by: Rae at December 1, 2005 07:37 PM
Hi Jamie, The description of your experience of children is beautiful, if I may say so. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I haven't any children but can well imagine what you mean. 'Hope that Thanksgivings have improved for you, or, if not, that they will. All the best.
Posted by: Ruth Whetsel at November 20, 2006 02:46 PM
hi jamie, i would really like to talk to you on it all. my name is keith and my email is firstname.lastname@example.org and i have to tell you that im engaged to a woman that has the schizophrenia. we love each other very much and i want to learn more about it. she does not like to talk to me about it because she says that it brings bad memories. so i have questions to ask you if i could. one thing is we want to have a baby so i dont know if it at all possible. i worry about her so much right now she is in a group home and i dont think she gets the care she needs there. i go there everyday to be there with her and that seems to help the most. i would like to know if there is ways that i can help her more. so if you could get in touch with me that would be wounderful thanks, keith
Posted by: keith davis at July 14, 2007 07:40 PM